Ruined

Today I'm blogging about some guy I met through the YM who literally ruined my entire Friday. The situation was like this, I met him last Wednesday this week through YM because he buzzed me, saying some vietnamese things which I didn't understand, at all. So I asked who he was and he introduced himself, and so did I. His name I won't tell, as he may have a blog account and he might surf and read my blog and do unspeakable things. I gave him my number so he could text me and vice versa. Big Mistake.

He texted me that night, while I was doing my nightly cardio. I had a hard time dealing with him because he was, literally, dogging me with texts, which I find it hard to read because of the weird letters he's using, nevertheless it was understandable, the message that is. Moving on, I found out that he was younger than me, as old as my sister, which I'm going for because I want to be with someone older than me. The guy literally was pesky and he was getting on my nerves, though gradually. What really pissed me off was that he wanted me to be his boyfriend, but I barely know anything from him.

Then Friday came, he kept bugging me about being his boyfriend. I got really annoyed so I told him why he can't be my boyfriend, because I have a boyfriend. He was so distraught and disappointed, he even said, why didn't I said it earlier. That really shook me, why didn't I tell him earlier. What was I thinking for me to withhold such fact? Was I telling the truth? Whatever my intentions maybe, I admit, I do regret not saying it ahead of time.

I do feel like I wasted his time and my energy, maybe it was me all along who ruined my Friday. What really bothered me was his defeated attitude, it really rubbed me the wrong way, literally. After saying that revelation it was as if he still wants to be me. He really was beyond insistent I'm telling you. He kept bugging the entire Friday, kind of like making me feel bad and even trying to win my pity in the process. To be honest, when he was airing his distraught ramblings, I can't help but shed a tear or two. I felt so bad for him, he was so into wanting me to be his boyfriend, but I can't, not only because I have a boyfriend, he was too young and naive. I think he needs a little more experience. I feel extremely bad for him, so much it even affected my day. Everytime he'd text me, I'd shed a tear or I almost broke down because I feel like, I brought him up and then spat him out, simultaneously, and that is not a good feeling.

By the end of the day I told him how much he annoyed me indirectly. He kept asking if I was mad. Of course I was, he drove me nuts for the entire day! But I didn't say that, all I said was that my patience runs thin with him. Im not sure if he got what I meant but, whatever, I was getting tired of him. Then Saturday evening, just awhile back, he texted me if should he text me because he's having a hard time. Damn Fuck! If he was having a hard time, what do you think I was having? Him messing up my relaxation days is just unbelievable, considering he's but a stranger to me. I can't belief a stranger messed up my day! How pathetic am I?

I told him to stop texting me finally and he said ok. To be honest it was painful for me to say that, I never wanted to say that kind of thing to anyone, but I have to say it now or be bothered by him. He was nice enough to wish me regard to my boyfriend. As I write how much he wishes good luck to me, I feel bad because he wanted me to be happy, even if he's not. I'm tearing up as I write this. I feel terribly bad, big time, because beyond that annoying texts me sent me, he really wanted to gamble being with me, loving me, which I never felt with my boyfriend. I feel like maybe he's the one for me and I just shunned him off. He even thanked me for my time with him, as bad as it was he still did. Maybe...but just maybe ... he might be the one I'm destined to be with after all...